Waiting On You

I got my head trying to think straight

Sooner or later I'll take the bait, I hope it's you

That doesn't question me, or thinks what else I could be

You know we're waiting for the shoe to drop

And I will be waiting...

Waiting for, you

To turn around and see me

But you only see what you want

You turn around, not what you want

But I will be patient

I will be waiting....for you

So tell me about you, and all you think

You think quite highly, of yourself and others like you

You see the world falling down, down, down, and you may be

Confused, but you still have hope

And it gives me hope to be...

Waiting for, you

To turn around and see me

But you only see what you want

You turn around, not what you want

But I will be patient

I will be waiting....for you

I can tell you're busy, I know it's crazy

How the world spins around in such a hurry

I try to be patient, understanding that you know what you're doing

Sometimes, but know that you can find me

Waiting, on you

To turn around and see me

But you only see what you want

You turn around, not what you want

But I will be patient

I will be waiting on you...

Walk

Can You pick me up?

Can You help me see

I don't know what to believe

Except that You love me

I don't know what to do

I don't know how to be

Show me how to see

The things that are waiting for me

I've been down before

But I just closed my eyes

I'll keep them open this time

Don't want to miss the holes I keep steppin in

Breathe into me

Show me the hope I believe

And take me away

Because everything's changed

How can I walk away

How can you ask this of me?

My heart is falling apart

My spirit's suffocating in this cascade of pain

I tried to be strong

But my words failed me

I promised you everything

And gave into the pressure

You said you forgave me

I don't know how

I want to start this again

Just show me how

I'm not a perfect man

I'm not superman

But I'll do the best I can

To follow You

I'll do the best I can

To love You

I gave everything to you

But it's too late

The Carpenter

Something that I don't know how to grab hold of is holding onto me

You took the words out of my mouth when I didn't want to speak

This awkwardness around us feels so natural

I don't understand why, but I smile and hope everything will be fine

I didn't regret a single word I said

I could read your answer just from the way you looked at me

This hurts more than anything, but the pain gives me strength

The unspoken feelings we share, I know will never come back to me

What I said was what I said

But I still don't know if you understand

How could everything stay the same?

How could everything change?

I know you know

That you're still hiding from yourself

Things are not the same

And I won't live in yesterday

You can take what was given

I won't stand in the way

But learn your lesson

If you come back, I won't promise anything

And Release

So now your shoes have become mine

I can feel your tears falling from my eyes

Your confused thoughts I can hear now

Just like you, I'm trying to find a way out

Were you this lost when it was your turn?

Did you make a scene or just let it burn?

Did you welcome the thought?

Or did you kick and scream when you saw

Your life changed into another story

As hard as you fought, you were forced to let it be

These days will not be the same

These choices, they bring the rain

But you will walk on through the storm

Now in the afterword you find the time

To find where the rhyme got its meaning

And when you shake your head

You find the memories still hide within

100 Hours

Suddenly something so old and wretched

Has started to become my new best friend

Without warning

All my dreams dashed under my bed

But somehow my mistakes don't push me away

They take me to a place where I can say

I'm proud of who I am today

I can't remember what's happened in the last hundred hours

But I know life's changed forever

It's something so beautiful, maybe I'll believe

When I wake up from this dream

Of fantasies, heartbreak, 19 years of living

It all brought me here to this place

Where I'm not sure, and I'm damned if I think I know

Tomorrow wouldn't mean a thing to me

Look at me, I don't know who I am

Without you, I don't know what to do

Cause with you, I don't know where I'm going

But you know everything so I'll just hold on

Life hit the brakes so I jumped the next train

Got out of the city, danced when I saw sky

Night came and the stars shined right through my eyes

The rain came and pulled me down to the ground

You might say I'm stuck in this place

I would be if I needed to be somewhere

My life is a blank, and I like it that way

There's nothing to hold me down or force me to stay

A-OK Failure

I know what you're not saying

Cause I've said the same thing to me so many times before

Our silence isn't helping

But you're not to blame, it's me

Cause eveything I knew I was

I ripped it all down so I could be someone I thought I wanted

And now I'm so sorry

Cause I don't know how to get back the old me

Did you call me again?

Did you say you were my friend?

Well I want one right now

But I won't admit it to anyone

It's not too late, it's not too late

I've hit the ground

I'm healing now

Thanks for giving me

The air I needed to breathe

Yes I'm hurting, yes I'm wanting

Out of what I'm in, but the rain keeps coming down

I wish I could stand here every day

Now I have to hold on to something

Pardon me, I'm not used to feeling this awkward

You held my hand and by grace you showed me the day

How to breathe the right way

I feel it

I don't know what to do with it

I used to think I was unbreakable

I can't give up, I won't give up

I don't know if I can take it

It's not too late, it's not too late

I've hit the ground

I'm healing now

Thanks for giving me

The air I needed to breathe

A Resignation

Father God, the Almighty

On my knees is where I fell

And I will continue to stay

What you have given I have taken

Made my own and corrupted

My beautiful Savior take me

I want to be done with myself

The death that I am is all I feel

My life flashes before my eyes like every time before

But this time it's real

And my heart is falling

Onto my mountain I climbed

And set it on fire

I thought I could rescue everything

Be my own savior for once

Create my own existence

Now I am lost in myself

The crumbled rubble I see in the mirror

Take me and be done with me

I am done with myself and forgotten